Wednesday, August 6, 2008

My Name is NOT Mommy!

Today is one of those days that I have felt that the whole motherhood/family is entirely over-rated. The kids have stayed mad at me for most of the day. They wanted to eat; they didn't want to eat. They hated what I offered them to eat. They wanted to swim. It was too hot to swim. And on and on...
I finally glared at them and declared, "My name is NOT Mommy!"
They looked at me, stunned.
"What should we call you?" they asked confused.
I sighed.

Hubby was out of town. He would call at the most incredibly inconvenient times, insist on talking to me, then say, "OK, just checking in. Gotta' go." He got home late this evening and was unhappy with me that I didn't stop everything I was doing to run to him and throw my arms around him.
All I wanted was chocolate, a warm bath and a bed. But instead I spent the day arguing with children and the evening with hubby and really bad Sci-Fi. I'm beyond tired.

I would love to run away and be someone else- just for a little while. Just to get away. I mean, I wouldn't want to permanently leave my life. I know I am incredibly blessed. But on days like this I wonder what else could have been?

What if I had become a teacher like I originally wanted? What if I had stayed in Indiana for college? What if I had gone to Europe with my group? Would I still be fighting with kids all afternoon? Would I still be hacked at hubby for not being around enough?

I guess I would simply have something else that frustrated me; something else that made want to run away and/or get drunk. I guess that's just life.

But I do hope tomorrow is happier. That I can help my kids have a better day. That now that hubby is home that we can spend some time together.

For now, I'm going to bed. I know I'll sleep like a rock. And tomorrow I will want to be Mommy Barbie again...

1 comment:

ThePrincessMommy said...

I have one acronym for you: MHIA!